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2009-06-25T22:31:00.000-07:00

I HAVE A HOUSE TO CALL MY OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

will update when internet returns and i return from expo

Father's Day

2009-06-13T14:00:00.000-07:00

Ｍｙ　Ｆａｔｈｅｒ’ｓ　Ｄａｙ

さよならさえうまく言えずにただ涙堪えて
今すぐでも少しかすれた声掛けてくれそうで

苦しみさえ見せないアナタはとても綺麗で
微笑だけ浮かべて独り消えていったＦａｔｈｅｒ’ｓ　Ｄａｙ

”Ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｔｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｗｏｒｄｓ．”
アナタの言葉抱いて

Ｉ’ｌl　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｆｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｄｏｕｂｔｓ．
いつかまだ出逢える日まで

胸の中の色褪せはしない思い出は永遠で
溢れ出した涙はやがて雪へと変わってゆく

百日紅の導く先にアナタが笑ってて
散り始めたこの季節が僕にとってのＦａｔｈｅｒ’ｓ　Ｄａｙ

”Ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｔｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｗｏｒｄｓ．”
アナタの言葉抱いて

Ｉ’ｌl　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｆｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｄｏｕｂｔｓ．
きっとまた出逢える
Ｇｏｏｄ－ｂｙｅ　Ｄａｄ

”Ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｔｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｗｏｒｄｓ．
Ｄｒｙ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｔｅａｒｓ．．．Ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｇｏ　ｆｏｒｔｈ　ａｌｏｎｅ．”

Ｉ’ｌl　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｆｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｄｏｕｂｔｓ．
Ｔｈｅ　ｍａｎｙ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ｙｏｕ　ｈａｖｅ　ｌｅｆｔ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｅ
Ｇｏｏｄ－ｂｙｅ　Ｄａｄ

”Ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｔｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｗｏｒｄｓ．”
アナタの言葉抱いて

Ｉ’ｌl　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　Ｎｅｏ　Ｕｎｉｖｅｒｓｅ
ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｆｅａｒｓ　ｎｏｒ　ａｎｙ　ｄｏｕｂｔｓ．
今は前を向いて
ずっと歩いてゆくよ

This is part of a string of singles from Gackt, in celebration of is solo career reaching its 10 year mark. The song is My Father's Day written for, Ogata Ken, for whom Gackt regarded to be a father figure to him. For those who don't know Gackt and his biological father never really had a close relationship, and Ogata, filled in that void for Gackt.

Just like Gackt's tribute to Kami san [my you rest in peace], this upbeat song contains very heartfelt and sincere meanings. About no being able to say goodbye to the person who you looked up to but remembering that it is more of a tribute to continue living life to its fullest then to just mourn with no growth in life.

It makes me wonder about my father.. does he realize how much he has hurt us?

"It's a GUNDAM!!"

2009-06-09T22:59:00.000-07:00

So for those who may not know it... this year the Gundam franchise [collectively licensed by Bandai and its subsidiaries] is celebrating its 30th Anniversary \(^o^)/ YAY go gundam!!

And to celebrate this commemorative moment, Bandai, teamed up with Green Tokyo to build a FULL SIZE SCALED GUNDAM.. yes you read it right.. FULL SIZE SCALED GUNDAM! The project started in early May in North Shiokaze Park in Japan and as of last week the final touches have been made and the gundam is complete

They opted to assemble the RX78 which was piloted by Amuro Rei in the first mobile suit gundam series as it was fit that the first full scale gundam be the first gundam in existence in the gundam universe. Supposedly there are movable aspects to this gundam as well as some lighting aspects. The gundam will be on free public view until the end of July when it will be dismantled and moved to a different location *sigh* if only the gundam museum was still open.

Doesn't this beg the question: If they can build a full scale gundam... doesn't that mean they can build a full scale workable gundam?

photo credits to : Moè Passion Blog
http://punynari.wordpress.com/2009/06/09/assembled-life-sized-rx78-gundam-part-1/

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If the gundam festivities weren't enough in Japan XD we are going have gundams here in the US... YES ANIME EXPO YO!!!

Aside from the massive list of gundam related guest of honors that Anime Expo is getting this year which include the director, producer, character designer for Gundam 00..

Bandai JAPAN will also be attending with a special gundam cosplay competition [sadly its only for 00 though]

Many of you know that my family are big gundam fans .. last year my bro attempted to create a gundam costume.. which we have dubbed "the costume that may never be mentioned again" but this year with a better sense of what we are doing and with more of the right material.. ^^

May I present to you ...

SHIN MUSHA GUNDAM

here is a reference picture :

Here is my brother's costume thus far:

Pardon the mess in the bg ^^;; in the midst of moving and chaos and all that good stuff..

There is still lots to be tweaked on the costume and more goodies to add on... but ....

(>-<) ISN'T IT WAY COOL?!?!?

Well anyways.. wish my bro luck for masquerade this year !!! Ill post up pics and videos of his perf after AX...

GAH 3 more weeks and so much to do *runs like a headless chicken*

HB 2009 Recap

2009-06-02T23:34:00.000-07:00

Well for now lets just say XD as much as I thought it was going to be sucky... because of friends/family/ and just interesting moments.. it was loads of fun

I'll update later on but here are the pics I took from HB [ BoF boy focused for a certain dongsaeng XD

Here are the fancams I took. As you can see XD I was quite close.. umm row 3 in pool circle to be exact ^-^

Just press the > arrow and it will take you to the next one in the playlist are:
ss501
kim tae woo
son ho young
son ho young + kim tae woo
G.O.D mini reunion <333
lena park
baek ji young
shinee [replay and amigo]

**click hq.. even though youtube still killed the quality but its better than their normal**

hope you enjoy and ill prolly come back to write a long winded blog about it .. if i remember XD

HB is done... NOW ON TO ANIME EXPO 2009 !!

Summer is here ^_^

2009-06-02T22:46:00.000-07:00

Summer is approaching.. time for a new layout, new outlook on life.. and LOTS OF FUN!!!

｡Version 6: Double Happy ｡

2009-01-24T23:07:00.000-08:00

just in case you dont see them on the bottom of the page
hihi guess who they are suppose to be >3

Happy Lunar New Years Everyone !!!

and

HAPPY 23 BIRTHDAY KIM JAE JOONG!!! <3>

its late so ill edit later XD back later with recap of week

｡Version 5: Happy New Year ｡

2008-12-31T16:35:00.000-08:00

XD yes! I have changed my skin again and be aware january 26th there will be a change.. notjustforjaejoong'sbday but for chinese new years as well ^_^ if you didnt know.. i am 1/2 chinese XD

this time this version features alice nine.. why do you ask?
XD the main reason was i saw their individual pics with the wine glasses and i thought it fits really well with the new years and merged them and got that XD

plus i like alice nine too

especially rainbow ^__^

｡Worst Person｡

2008-12-28T12:41:00.000-08:00

I think I did a really stupid thing today though I was somewhat justified to do so. For those who don't know which probably is everyone reading this.. I am deathly afraid of things that involve death/sickness... I refuse to go into hospitals, I avoid cemeteries like they were the plague and I refuse to go to funerals.

This week 3 distant relatives of ours passed on and my mother has been going as a representative of our side of the family to the funeral ceremonies.

1- as an elder
2- because she knows how much I hate/fear going to them, so she apologizes for my absence [I am technically obligated to go being that I am the oldest one amongst the siblings now]

Ever since my grandfather's passing many years ago... I refuse to take part in ceremonies for many reasons.. one of which many of you would say I'm crazy for believing.

Today my mother was to go to the funeral of my co-worker [who also happens to be my distant cousin]'s aunt's funeral who had passed on due to colon cancer that was too advanced for treatment. The plan was for David, my 4th brother to take her to the funeral... but Mr. sunshine stayed out all night and decided to sleep in.

So of course my mother told me to take her even though she knew that I can't. She kept urging me saying that all I had to do was sit and wait in the car and that the funeral ceremony would be done within the hour. Already having anxiety build up just with the thought of going.. I got up and said I'll go wake up David. Her face turns sour and pretty much just said "F-it" and stormed into her room cursing and yelling of course all directed towards me.

I do feel bad my mother couldn't go but she has to understand that I would have become a basket case or have a panic attack if I had gone. But I also know .. that the reason why she wanted me to go was because she wanted me to be there for her and show to the family that we are still strong even without him taking care of us and probably to have me try to overcome my fears.

...

I just couldn't do it.. now my sister is mad because when my mommy is angry she takes it out on everyone and I get to have a month of my mother not talking to me and her making me feel like the worst person in the world, which I've been feelign that way ever since may..

I guess I really am then..

｡4th Day Before Christmas ｡

2008-12-23T21:52:00.000-08:00

WAHHHHHHHHHHHH GOMENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN I know I'm late but things unexpectedly came up. >-< *bows* please forgive me. Even though it's late and the countdown is incorrect now I still owe you 4 more days before christmas gifts and here is my gift to you for the 4th day before christmas.. i hope you like it [please dont kill me!!]

With You

“Jae Joong ah.. where are you taking me? Can’t I take off my blindfold?” Chloe said as she reached for the blindfold.

Before she could slide the black blindfold down Jae Joong gently stopped her hand and moved it away giving a kiss on it, “It’s a surprise. I promised you something special for Christmas.. aegi yah can you just wait … for me?”

Blushing she tried to pull her hand away, “Don’t call me aegi yah.. you know I don’t like that!” she mumbles, “I’m your noona remember..”

With a laugh and smile, Jae Joong took her into his arms, “ But for tonight.. can you be my aegi yah… Let me take care of you.. ne? ”

“…” Chloe unable to think of a rebuttal nodded and sank into the warmth of his arms, “When can I take my blindfold off Jae Joongie..”

“ah we’re here.” Jae Joong said as he led Chloe to the door and led her down finally un blindfolding her, “How does Christmas eve in Japan sound?”

“Eh?” Chloe said as she rubbed her eyes and put on her glasses, “OMO… What? Jae Joongie, are you kidding me?”

With a smile he walked to Chloe, fixing her scarf and put on some mittens on her hand, “iie, nippon he no kangei, kuroii chan”

“You are always full of unexpected things Jae Joongie..” Chloe said as she blushed and poked him in his side.

“hahah But isn’t that why you fell for me in the first place?” Jae Joong said as he took her hand and started running, “I’m starving. let’s go get some ramen!!”

“But… aren’t we going to take a car? Aren’t you afraid we’re going to get mauled by your fans??”

“Today.. I’m just Kim Jae Joong on a date with my beautiful girlfriend.” Jae Joong said as he continued to run, holding Chloe’s hand, but stopped and looked at her pouting, “Unless you would rather get driven around in a big fancy car and go to a fancy restaurant.. we can do that too.”

Cupping his face she smiled and planted a kiss on his lips, “I would want nothing more than to be with you. Nothing else matters.”

“When I’m with you.. I don’t need money or fancy cars.. I just need you…”

As the two looked deep into one another’s eyes, both began to fall for each other more so than before, reminiscing about the last 5 years they’ve been together.
“I love you Chloe ah..” Jae Joong said as he slowly leaned towards her.

Nervously, Chloe turned away red and coughed, “Umm… Jae Joongie.. I’m hungry now… let’s go get some ramen at a street stall and umm some takoyaki too.”

“Great minds think alike.” He wrapped his arm around Chloe and smiled, “Let’s go.”

As the two walked down the streets looking at the lights and many people on the streets, they laugh and play around just like a normal couple. Something they haven’t been able to do as of late because of Jae Joong’s busy schedule. Chloe knew him being here with her was going to wear him out since the next few weeks were to be busy for him. But seeing his smile and just being with him like this, she couldn’t help but be thankful for having him with her.

“Chloe ah.. look…” Jae Joong said as he held her hand and pointed towards the sky.

“Yehey it’s snowing” Chloe said as she held out her hand to catch the falling snowflakes in her hand, “hehehe.”

Jae Joong smiled watching how Chloe’s face seemed to just brighten the night, at that moment, he felt that if he lost everything he possessed.. he wouldn’t care because she was with him.

“Jae Joongie..” Chloe said as she turned to him, “Is something wrong?”

Jae Joong smiled and shook his head, “Nothing.. when I’m with you.. everything is perfect…”

At that moment, even though people and cars were passing by in a whirl, to them, they were the only two on the street, nothing else mattered.

“Come on Chloe ah,” Jae Joong said as he took her hand and changed subjects seeing how embarrassed the two had become, “You must be hungry lets go eat.”

The two continued to walk til they reached the ramen stall that they first met at.

“Ah Jejung kun, Kuroii chan.. long time no see.” The owner said as he greeted them and started preparing bowls, “Two specials extra meat and noodles for Jejung and for Kuroii extra broth coming right up!”

The two smiled and sat down holding hands underneath the counter. The owner quickly place two piping hot bowls in front of the couple.

“Haha and this time no fighting over who will pay, it’s on the house tonight.” Saying this he quickly took away all the spicy seasonings, “and no trying to kill each other ok? Hahaha”
After their meal the two continued walking and talking, “Jae Joongie.. this has been a wonderful night but couldn’t we have done this in Seoul?” Chloe asked as she took a bite of her crepe and then held it up to Jae Joong.

“We could have but.. it wouldn’t be the same” Jae Joong said and then bit the crepe.

“Why wouldn’t it have been the same?”

Jae Joong just continued to chew and smile pointing towards the large display screen. Chloe looked up to the screen just as music began to play and images of couples started to show.

“Wahh.. how sweet.” Chloe said as turned to Jae Joong, only to see an empty spot beside her, “Jae Joongie?”

As she looked around for him, she started to notice that the people around her were looking at her and then look back to the screen.

“What the…” when she looked back up to the screen tears began to fall, pictures of her and Jae Joong began to appear on the screen. Pictures of them when they first met, candids, pictures of them together. Chloe did not know what to say or do and then she finally realized where she was… Shibuya station. Just as she was about to pull out her phone to call him, she heard a guitar and violin and saw those who were looking at her before light candles encircling her in light.

I need you boo, (oh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

“Jae Joongie?” she said hearing a faint voice singing. She started quickly turning to see if he was there.

Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

“Jae Joongie!!!” Chloe called out blushing, not believing he would do such a thing. As pictures of them continued to display on the screen, a small child walked towards Chloe from the crowd holding a lily.

“Nee chan…for you..” the little girl said softly as she handed her the lily.

Chloe knelt down and accepted the lily with a smile, “Arigatou ne”

The little girl bowed and then gave Chloe a kiss on the cheek before. back into the crowd.

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

Chloe looked at the lily and blushed and felt a tug on her jacket. She looked down and there was another child with a lily for her and behind that child was many more.

Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,

“You make me fall in love…” Jae Joong sang as the crowd parted making a path for him as he continued to sing as he walked toward Chloe holding a single white lily.

And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm..

Chloe began to cry uncontrollably while smiling thinking of how much Jae Joong had to have prepared for this moment. How much he loved her.

“With you..” Jae Joong gently touched her cheek whipping away her tears.

“Jae Joongie…” Chloe said as she smiled.

But before she could finish his lips touched hers and everything she wanted to say vanished and all she could feel was the love he had for her and love she had for him. The crowd began to sing the song as the two shared their sweet kiss.

“Chloe ah.. Look at the time.. it’s Christmas.”

“Is it?”

Jae Joong handed her the lily in his hand and kissed her cheek, “Merry Christmas..”

“Thank you Jae Joongie.. umm Jae Joongie.. what are you..” Chloe whispered as she watched Jae Joong kneel down looking up at her smiling.

“Jae Joongie… I don’t understand..” Just as she was questioning his action, a small shine came from the lily he had handed her.

She looked closely and in the center of the flower was a single diamond ring, “Jae Joongie..”

He turned to the screen with tears in his eyes making Chloe do the same. It was a video of Jae Joong.

Chloe ah.. I know this makes me a coward but I really don’t know if I could be a man and say this to you without breaking down in tears. Probably right now, I’m crying next to you aren’t I? haha.. but I really love you… with all my heart. I can’t picture my life without you. You are my heart, soul.. my melody. I told you one day I would take you to Shibuya where I first bumped into you and fell head over heels for you and kiss you. Well after all we’ve been through.. tonight I was finally able to keep my promise. And I can say that every day you make me fall in love with you more..

Chloe in tears turned to Jae Joong, who looked at her with a gentle yet anxious expression.

I know for sure that I don’t want to be anyone else. I only want to be with you… Will you marry me?

The screen faded black and then turned into a live stream of where they were standing. The area seemed to go into a standstill as the entire area fell silent waiting for her reply only to be broken by people in their cars honking and cheering on Chloe to say yes that caused those on the streets to do the same.

“Chloe ah..” Jae Joong said as he took her hand, “No matter the answer, I am only complete when I’m with you.. and that will never change.”

“Ne..” Chloe said quietly.

“Huh?”

“Yes Jae Joongie.. I’ll marry you.” Chloe said nodding fast whipping her tears, “yes I’ll marry you.”

“Really?!?!” Jae Joong said as he jumped up, “You will?? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

With that everyone burst out into cheers as Jae Joong took Chloe in her arms and swung her around and kissed her.

“Jae Joong!!!” Chloe said hitting him in the arm, “Stop it… its embarrassing.”

Jae Joong quickly stopped and smiled, “Ow.. sorry .. I just got too excited.”

“umm.. well ..” Chloe said shyly as she held the ring in front of Jae Joong, “Do I have to wear it myself?”

Smiling Jae Joong took the ring and slid it on her hand, “Perfect match..”

As the crowd continued to cheer the couple embraced as the snow began to fall again.

“You know.. all of your fans are going to hate me now Jae Joongie..”

“Are you mad Chloe ah? I’m…”

Before he could say anything, Chloe kissed him and smiled, “As long as I’m with you… it won’t matter.”

Jae Joong smiled and touched his forehead to hers, “As long as we’re together.. nothing else in the world matters..”

The end.

｡What do you do...｡

2008-12-23T00:10:00.000-08:00

So.. what do you do when you have to go to visit random relatives all over the place for the holidays???

well you can do what i did XD

lock yourself in the bathroom and camwhore LOL

so yes.. today was "holiday visits to family within 2-4 hrs driving distance"time... after 4 visits i got bored and excused myself and went the bathroom and just decided to camwhore [very NOT NORMAL FOR ME btw]

but before i can start my sister and cousin show up and knock on the door saying: we know what you are doing let us in so we can do your hair at least ^^;; i was a frizz ball today

so here is wat came of boredom:
tee hee btw thats the new hoodie mommy got me
my hair has grown out since may and the color changed too XD

here is me in may:

me now:

｡5th Day Before Christmas ｡

2008-12-20T21:41:00.000-08:00

teehee well back with the 5th day before christmas gift ^^
and its page 2 of special delivery !!! woot XD i promise the next days will be more interesting <3

gomen unnie i couldnt find a bsb christmas song ... but this is cute too

｡6th Day Before Christmas ｡

2008-12-20T00:04:00.000-08:00

click to enlarge

day 6 hehehe hope you enjoy

｡7th Day Before Christmas ｡

2008-12-18T23:59:00.000-08:00

I hope I don't kill anyone ^-^;;; and HAPPY HOLIDAYS
so... click if you dare.. and umm yeah the message is post dated/ delayed..

see you on the 6th day before christmas ^-^v

｡Junsu Needs Love Too｡

2008-12-16T00:13:00.000-08:00

hahaha well first off .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JUNSU [really belated though]

next of like the header says .. charming junsu needs love too XD

Changmin Loves Junsu

Yoochun Loves Junsu

｡<3 Everyone Loves Jae｡

2008-12-14T22:28:00.000-08:00

hahahah yes you read it right.. EVERYONE LOVES KIM JAE JOONG... EVEN HIS BAND MEMBERS.

im not really into couplings but this was just too hard to resist... hope you like it and please dont take offense it was just for fun ^-^v

Yunho Loves Jae Joong

Yoochun Loves Jae Joong

Changmin Loves Jae Joong

Changmin & Jae Joong Love Each Other !!!

ROLF ... Sorry I couldn't help it hehehe

and to accompany this.. a song that just seems very appropriate in a way XD
... so this christmas who will jae joong give his love to?!?!? LOL

｡My Series of Unfortunate Events｡

2008-12-14T08:38:00.000-08:00

So if my life wasn't already tough as it is... more shit happens (=.=)...

12.12.08 phone call
me: hello mommy
mommy: linlin....
me: yes mommy
mommy: daddy called
me: so what do i need to know that for mommy *starts angry mumbling*
mommy: linlin.. he's your father... he said he will be coming home around christmas.. go buy some new blankets and get the camry's title from the bank for him.
me: *hang up*
co-worker: linda are you ok? *nervous look*
me: *punches steel locker and grabs stuff and leaves*
co-worker: shit.... some one is going to die

=.= yes.. the bastard father that called us worthless and abandoned us for dead... IS COMING FUCKING HOME!!!!!!!!! you do not know how much this makes me mad... i know why he is coming back and it is not the bullshit lies he is feeding my sister and mother. he's coming home because his slutty lover has taken everything from him and her family placed a hit on him. pfft me send him 3000 dollars... like hell i would if i had the money... i know one thing.. if she accepts him back after all the shit he has done with us.. i might be homeless and have no family. i can't take it anymore.

if that didnt just destroy my weekend off.. guess what... I HAD A PANIC ATTACK.. just freakin great. according to my doctor when i was taken to the hospital, he said that the panic attack was caused by all the stress, worries and frustration i've kept bottled inside releasing all at once. that it will continue to happen as long as i dont find a way to release my anger and just stay calm and happy. [[ for those who have never had a panic attack... it's like having your chest cave in on you with your ribs piercing your lungs.. sound fun... try having it for 4 hrs and not being able to breath, call for help or move =.=]] in the last 3 days.. ive had 3 panic attacks.. the latter two were not as severe as the first one... he also mentioned that if this continue i might die at an early age because of it

i promised unnie that i will try to stay happy and i will.. but idk with all this stuff happening... I WILL TRY MY BEST

ONCE AGAIN MY SISTER RUINS ANOTHER FAMILY VACATION =_=*twitch*
Christmas is just around the corner and money is extremely tight around my house.. so instead of buying everyone an individual gift I decided to use the money that owuld have gotten everyone small gifts to finance a weekend trip to LA (Los Angeles) where we would drive down ther eon friday night and have all of saturday and part of sunday to just hang out and have fun. especially since my baby brother and my nephews and neice have never gone to LA just for fun.. it has always been for family functions or such. everything was going well until.. she found out and decided to invite her firends to come with us and explaining to them that they need not worry about money.. that i would be taking care of all of it.. umm HELL NOOOOOOOO first off its a family trip.. second off i was going to pay for a rental car, hotel and one meal for the 0 people that were aoriginally going not the x amount of people she invitied... sometimes i wonder if she realizes that times are tough and that i am not made out of money...

so pretty much the trip is cancelled... everyone else knows that its cancelled except her.. which im fine with. the only thing she doesnt know is that we are going to san francisco.. except she wont know til we are on the bart and she is asleep in her bed at hom

yes i know that is evil but .. its the only thing that will keep me from haivng to finance the trip for like30 people..

finally...

my minnie... decided to field goal kick my laptop screen =.=
all was going well, we had friends come over and play cards and such.. the door bell rang and i asked totchi [one of my adorable adopted brothers] to go answer the door but minnie decides he will go answer it and instead of walking around me (i was sitting on the floor near where we were playing cards and minnie was laying on th ecouch behind me) he thought he could clear me and my laptop that was coincidentally in my lap..

next thing you know his foot connects with my laptop and sends it flying about 4 feet before falling on my tile floor.. lets just say that i can never use the screen again... he in an attempt to stop me from crying [yes i was crying because i paid for this laptop with my own money] and from me going into a blood rage he offered his laptop.. sweet except =.= that would grant me execution via my mommy. so to avoid all this .. we pulled out the flatscreen for our desktop and got a usb keyboard.. so basically now i have a compact desktop.... *twitch*

All within 72hrs.. such a string of unfortunate events..

Argh >>>>>>>>>>>>>>-<<<<<<<<<<<<<<;;;

. DEAD.

2008-12-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

MY LAPTOP SCREEN IS DEAD VIA MY BABY BROTHER

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ILL PROBABLY BE DEAD SOON TOO

｡Tag.. I'm It?!?!｡

2008-12-10T20:54:00.000-08:00

Gah.. unnie tagged me...

List 8 random facts about yourself
1. i have super random memory and memorize random facts but cant memorize important facts for the life of me
2. according to most people.. i'm very romantic and have the awesomest romantic ideas.. even though ive never been in a relationship before
3. when i get mad.. i tend to find a new hobby XD hey its better than destroying things
4. my most favorite music idol... GACKT [he is the best ever!!!]
5. i like causing trouble
6. i make costumes XD
7. you either hate me or like me when you first meet me.. there is no middle ground.. unless you fear me
8. i dont know how to swim

YOU
First name: Linda Lin Anhlinh Pbailin Rei Hikari [depends on which relatives im with]
Name you wish you had: I like my names XD
What do people normally your name as: Linlin, linds, lind, hika, reirei, pbai pbai pbai [ =.= this one sucked... people started calling me that when Nsync's Bye Bye Bye came out]
Birthday: 07.08.1985 [the same bday as jrocker Sugizo ^-^v]
Bitrhplace: Stockton, Ca
Time of birth: morning
Single or taken: single for life

YOUR APPEARANCE
H0w tall are you: 5'10 1/2" XD umm 179.1 cm for the rest of the world
Wish you were taller: 6' yo!
Eye colour: dark brown
Current hair color: black/brown with caramel streaks [red highlights faded out]
short or long hair: long hair but thin T-T
ever dye your hair a bizarre color: midnight blue black with electric blue highlights [though the highlights only were noticeable in very bright places XD]
last time you did something dramatic with you hair: went to a salon in may to get my hair done.. =.=85 bucks..
glasses or contact: both of them
do you wear make up: yes when i cosplay
paint your nails: not that often

IN AN OPPOSITE GENDER
what eye color: any eye color as long as they have beautiful and strong eyes
what hair color: jet black or dark brown or platinum!!
shy or outgoing: both XD
sexy or cute: both XD
serious or fun: fun to be with but can be serious when he needs to
older or younger than you: hard~ ummm 2-3 years older AND younger than me LOL
a turn on: musically inclined (composes, plays an instrument, has a great voice), strong hypnotic eyes, a beautiful smile, athletic
a turn off: smokes badly
flowers or chocolates: flowers
pepsi or coke: coke
rap or rock: rock!
relationship or one night stand: relationship!
school or work: work
love or money: love
wish you were prince or princess: princess but knows that i can take care of myself too
like someone who was taken: no
Shaved your head: NOOOOOOOOOO
used chopstick: yes
sang in the mirror to yourself: sadly yes..
favorites flower: gardenia jasmine water lilies<333
candy: twix, lindt truffles, ferrero rocher
junk food: i don’t eat junk food lately
website: a lot of them
location: California
animal: I love all animals ^-^

MISC
ever cried over someone: unfortunately yes
is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: weight , hair, teeth, self confidence.. Everythign? XD
do you think you’re attractive: NOPE
if you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: depends if it is like the fairytale im writing XDD
Do you play any sports: football, baseball, basketball, tennis, volleyball, paintball, soccer, hockey.. lets just say the male to female ratio in my family is 5 to 1

Persons whom I tag;
1. Ana
2. Esther owlie
3. Little one Xiu
4. Never dreams about Changmin [though she should] May

｡Happy Birthday｡

2008-12-08T20:42:00.000-08:00

To My Dearest Niecie Shelly!!!

SAENG IL CHUK HA HAMNIDA!!!

O TANJOUBI OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU !!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!

Selamat Hari Jadi!

*cough cough* Auntie's voice sucks.. so auntie will leave the singing to DBSK & Jae Joongie ne? Just ignore the girl's name and insert yours XD
[ (=.=) remember you only get to have him today and then must return promptly back to auntie tomorrow arasuh?!?!? ]

Everything auntie wanted to say is in the graphic hope you like it!

XD LOVE YOU !!!!

｡Dear My Friend｡

2008-12-05T20:05:00.000-08:00

I am a person that has few friends. People may think that I have a lot of friends, but truthfully there are only a handful of people that I consider my friends. Even fewer that I can say that I would have no worries about putting my life in their hands.

Over the years I have always been the kind of person that even with my cold demeanor, people seem to become fascinated with me for one reason or another. In the end very few genuinely wanted be friends without motives. Some where to have me do things for them [I've been told I am very naive], protect them, praise them in a sense they want me to be their entourage, make them look fabulous [because I am fat, ugly and over all homely]. Because of my past experiences.. for a good 5 years of my life I shut myself in a bubble and didn't dare become close to anyone.

Recently in the last 2 years because of different things I've slowly opened up myself to people and yet again the same thing happens, but at least this time I was blessed to meet someone that I can call my best friend, my real true best friend.

This friend has never judged me and knows all my flaws but still sticks by me when I am my highest and lowest in life. I was always told that friends never stay for long and that someone like me would never have a real friend. This friend proves that all those things people told me are wrong. I know I do stupid things and I've probably hurt you more than once un-intentionally, yet you always find it in your heart to forgive me because you understand me that well.

We joke around about karma and soulmates and fate... I guess it was karma and fate that led us to meet. In so many senses we are soo much alike which is why we were drawn to each other and in other sense we are soo much different which allows us to learn from each other [though I think it's more of me learning from you] We joke and banter about who is older than who sometimes, but it's because we both live lives that required us to grow up more quicker than others. Yet deep down inside.. we still have our childlike innocence. ^-^ I hope that this innocence never is taken away from you, though I say innocence... it is more of sincerity than anything. We both hide things from others, but in the end cannot hide things from each other or ourselves.

I hope you know how truly blessed and honored I am to have met such a great friend as you..

I know I've said this before but this is true,

You are like the older sister that I've always wanted and needed in my life.

Saranghaeyo .

Okay .. ^-^;; seeing that I have prolly gone over the deep end with seriousness in the last 2 out of 3 posts this week.. some good tidings now.

Chloe unnie has opened her awesome website after months of idleness and obscurity via net life.. AND IM GOING TO PROMOTE IT HERE XD CUZ .. YEAH IT IS JUST THAT PWNSOME!!!

CLICK HERE TO CHECK OUT THE AWESOMEST [^^;; is that even a real word?] WEBSITE EVER!!!! CLICKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! I DEMAND YOU TO !!!!!

but seriously everyone check it out ... she is an awesome writer and graphics genius.
@chloe unnie: I have changed my layout.. umm 4 times but unnie has changed it twice too soooooo I'm only two ahead XD

Woah... 3 blogs in 2 days... so unlike me XD but I was told that blogs are meant to be kept updated.. (^-^);; unlike my old ones.. yes MULTIPLE.. hmm let's see how long this one lasts...

Ja mata ne for now (^-^)v

｡Version 4 ｡

2008-12-04T22:49:00.000-08:00

Welcome to my winter wonderland dong bang style !

As you can see there is a new background of snowy-ness and oh look it actually has falling snow XD

The header has a picture of cute DBSK before manhood and muscles took over ^_^;;; *fans self* of course I added a few things here and there to make it more lively.

In addition I compiled a few holiday tunes via DBSK and SMTown as well as my favorite holiday song.

Hope you all enjoy this layout while it lasts

｡When Life Gets Tough... HaHaHa... =.=;; I'm trying really hard to HaHaHa｡

2008-12-04T09:15:00.000-08:00

Right now... =.=;; this is keeping smile on my facefor the recent events that have entered my household these past few days... 56hrs to be exact have made me want to go into a blood rage.

First off... I'M SICK?!?!?!? =.=;; and for me that means... 1-2 months of runny nose, coughing and all around suckiness.. For those who don't know I pretty much have the weakest immune system ever.. so even a small cold turns into something that causes loads of trouble especially since currently... I am the sole provider of the family. Spent the last two days coughing up whatever there was to cough.. and whatever there wasn't to cough. Called out of work today.. funny though since my manager couldn't understand a word I was saying even though I was screaming it [yeah =.= lost my voice for a good portion of the day]. I had loads of work to do today.. but I guess I'll do them tomorrow when I get there. ^-^;; Those two mixed drinks on Tuesday on an empty stomach prolly didn't help either but yeah.. I was forced to. [Friend's 21st bday.. couldn't say no to the bday girl.]

Next thing to add to the string of unfortunate-ness... completely against my warnings.. my dimwit of a sister decides .. "Oh I should email daddy and wish him a happy thanksgiving even though he abandoned us and left us for dead.. I still want him to love me." =.= and what is the outcome of that:

1. She showed that man I will never call father again, that there are still people here in the family that still want him to come back.

2.That "we" have forgiven him for committing adultery and betraying his wife of 40+years and 7 children for the last 3 years. [[I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM ...]]

3. =.= she was stupid enough to give that man our new home phone number, cell numbers, and pretty much all the information he needs to have if he ever wants to find us, contact us, or incriminate us ...

MY SISTER IS STUPPPIIIIIIIIIIIIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Continuing with this.. I honestly thought that the man wouldn't respond back .. but =.= like she knows, she was his favorite child so of course he replies..

blah blah blah I miss you all blah blah blah the weather here is fine..

and then of course there is the :

Daddy is sorry for all the things Daddy has done to the family. Daddy is in hiding right now in Cambodia and has no other choice but to come back. Daddy really wants to become a family again and be the Daddy you all know and love. Daddy is really sorry for hurting and leaving you all, please forgive Daddy.

*twitch* =.= LIKE HELL I'M GOING TO FORGIVE YOU!! I must say .. he is a shameful man for even thinking we would take him back. OVER MY DEAD BODY!!!

And you think it would end here.. but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... Daddy's Little Girl just has to email him back asking him why he is in hiding, reaffirming his assumption that all of us here have forgiven him already =.=.

Daddy can't tell you right at this moment, but when Daddy is safely back at home, Daddy will tell you. Right now Daddy is trying to gather money and sell stuff to get money to go home. Can you ask mommy or your big sister if they can send some to Daddy to buy a ticket to come home?

*SCREAMS OFF THE TOP OF MY LUNGS AND PUNCHES THROUGH A WINDOW* =w= *calms down* lets see... send money to a man that cheated on his wife, accused me of stealing and cursing at his lover, abandoned his family for dead, and stole money from the temple or ... pay a bill.. hmmmm YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT IF YOU THINK ME OR MOM WOULD SEND YOU CRAP?!?! [[ great now I have to replace the window in the living room ... good thing I get a discount at Lowe's ]]

You would think if someone sends you a letter saying they are in hiding.. the would implicate they are HIDING FROM SOME BAD PEOPLES =.=.. Yes.. lets let him into our home and potentially be marked for death.. stupid sister...

I know I am going to hell for saying such things about the man that partially gave me life.. but at this point I DO NOT CARE..

So it is now a waiting game =.= if he comes or not.. if I call the police on him or not... if he makes it out of Cambodia alive or not..

^_^ I can honestly say I do not care and that ... =.= I have not told any of my family members in Asia to do anything to that man. I am innocent.. *grins*

The last portion of this .. is still about my sister =.= as you can see.. she causes much pain to me .. physically .. mentally... every way she possibly can.

So.. I go with my adopted brother to pick her up from work, prior to picking her up, Po & I have a conversation about her.. pretty much me warning him to listen to my warnings or fall into the pit of despair that is my sister's manipulative and idiotic ways. He of course agrees and says he will listen.. =.= *curb stomps him in his sleep*

First thing she says when she gets into the car:

Po want to go to denny's with me and momo?? Just for an hour or so

At this point I give him a look but sadly he had already fallen into my sister's trap and agrees. As we get home I continue to try to get him out of going and try to make my sister not go as well for a few reasons.. she shouldn't be going out this late [it was 12:30AM when she and Po left to go to denny's], she should be saving up her money since we are not in the position to spend freely, and it's bad to eat late at night =.= she's trying to lose weight.

They don't listen and I am feverish so I have no intentions of waiting up for them. Sister dear didn't take her phone with her and Po's phone is dead =.=. As I peacefully sleep.. I get awoken at 3:30 AM by a very distraught mother who is kicking me and screaming at me because sister and Po aren't home yet. I get yelled and at tossed keys, ordered to go out and seek them out.. my temperature at this time was well over 100 degrees, but mommy doesn't care. Luckily I know how to unlock her phone and called the person she was with ... so I didn't have to go out into the fog and 26 degree weather to blindly search for them.

I go back to sleep and at 4:00 AM they return and a massive argument breaks out with sister and mother that ends with a stalemate because both are stubborn =.= like mother like daughter. She comes into the room and of course kicks me and starts yelling at me for not making an excuse so my mother wouldn't know. Completely disoriented I just lay on my mattress on the floor and take the verbal and physical abuse..

**in our room she has a bed and for the last 6 months I've been sleeping on the floor until 3 days ago where I was given a mattress due to the cold weather**

So you tell me .. when times get tough... like that.. would you be able to HaHaHa? =.= I've tried... trust me I have.. *sigh* maybe if DBSK was here in person to sing me the song and try to cheer me up .. I would be able to HaHaHa..

｡Waiting & My Only Star｡

2008-12-01T14:28:00.000-08:00

After a long while of writing nothing.. seriously.. XD

I decided to take a whack at writing one shots or short stories as others may call them and i have written two since thanksgiving

Waiting

My Only Star

Both are written with the thought that the reader would take on the female lead's emotions and the male lead would become the Dong Bang Shin Ki member you love most.. ^^;;

Waiting and My Only Star are written with a winter theme in mind evoking thoughts of love in both, finding it and losing it.

I hope everyone enjoys and please don't forget to leave some comments good or bad.. they are much appreciated ^-^v

｡Thanks To｡

2008-11-26T18:54:00.000-08:00

Tis that time of year again where everyone is partying, eating lots, and more importantly give thanks to the things they have in their life. Some of you may or may not know but this year has not been the best year for me. Even so there are still many things and people I am thankful for.

I am thankful for my family [ at least the family that stuck by our side through these times]. Without you I don't know how I could have made it through this year. As much as we fight and bicker, I love you all very much.

-Mommy, I am sorry that I haven't been able to do much, but I will try my best to continue to do everything for the family. My heart breaks when I see you cry. You've done so much for the family and have gone through so much.. I really wish if I could.. take all the pain and put it in me again.

-David, my obnoxious pseudo twin.. We fight, we bicker, we don't see eye to eye on things, but in the end you are the one that knows me the best in the family..

-Daniene, what can I say about you other than... gah I wish you would grow up XD ! No seriously though.. I know how much it has hurt you with the things that have gone on in the family and though I don't say it much. I am very proud how much you have actually matured and "manned" up to reality. JUST STOP BUYING THINGS WILL YOU?!?!? XD

-Dane, my adorkable minnie. I am so proud of you for sticking it out in football and leading your team into the playoffs. It's ok that you didn't get to go farther than the first game but I know that next year you will go farther. Thank you for keeping the family together and lightening up the mood when things get tought. Thank you for sticking up for me when I was pushed against the wall by those going against us. I promise that I'll be with you as long as you need me.

-Po, what can I say to you .. other than you are such an ADORKABLE BRO. I am very happy and honored that you have joined our family. As much as you are playful and childish, you have a big heart and are very mature. I'm sorry I poke fun at you so much, but it is all out of love. Thanks for being a big bro to Dane and putting up with my family's craziness [though you just add fuel to the fire XD]

- Rady, my 19 year old nephew, thank you for trusting me and confiding in me what is in your heart. Seeing you smile after makes it all worth while and thanks for trusting me.

To my dear friends, I have so many things to be grateful for.. I apologize to anyone who isn't mentioned, but believe me when I say that I am thankful for each and every single friend I've made and appreciate everything you have done for me.

-Karma to my Chaos, Chloe unnie. October 31st marked 2 years that we have been friends. I am so thankful to have met and befriended such an amazing person. Thank you for accepting me for me and not being wierded out by my odd behavior and quirks. Thank you for always being here to support me when I am down and lost, when I'm sad and want to end it all. Thank you for being the unnie that I've always wanted. Thank you for being the light to my darkness and always re-assuring me that even when life seems to be against me .. that things will only get better. I don't know what I would have done without you. But remember that it goes around the same way unnie. I will always be there for unnie<333 XD your package will be going to you soon!!! Filled with goodies for my bestest unnie and friend. PARTNERS IN CHAOS FOREVER!! See you in May!!! Everyone in the family is looking forward to your visit!

- My turtle princess, I am thankful to have a funny dongsaeng like you. I know I promise that I would give you an update and I will... eventually ^-^;;; I kno wyou don't like being called turtle princess.. but you will always be that to me <3

-My Candysky Mishmish, thank you for always worrying about this unnie and always sticking on my side. It means so much to me to have a dear dongsaeng like you. Remember what I told you. I seriously meant every single word.

-Little butterfly Emi hmmm it has been an odd year has it not? From bumping into hottie jrockers to my random trip to socal. Thanks for sticking around and dealing with my random behavior and still thinking of me as your ummanie though we haven't spoken much lately. Saranghae.

-My fanfic writing queen dongsaeng, hahah what can I say to you Diana, but thank you for still talking to me and sharing your awesome ideas on your stories and being a good friend ne. I'm sorry that sometimes I go MIA in our chats but you know why XD. Thanks for always worrying about my health and well being and confiding in me.

-Yumi chan, GOMEN!!! I STILL HAVEN'T SENT OUT YOUR PRIZE YET BUT I WILL I PROMISE!! Thank you my awesome fanfic writere, graphic artist, all around amazing dongsaeng for befriending me and not thinking much of my craziness. Though we are a continent apart, I am thankful you see me as an unnie you can talk to and confide in things.

-Jinng ading!! Thank you so much for being such a good ading. ^_^ thank you for always supporting this ate in her random adventures into .. umm everything?? I know you are busy with school and yet you still have time to come and chat with me. Remember whenever you come to California ^-^ ate will be the awesomest guide ever!

-Xiu, the little onion that thinks of me as her sidekick =.=;; .. Even with that flaw of yours I am thankful to have met such a delightful yet excentric person as you. Thanks for being brutally honest with me about everything and looking up to me as an unnie. Also for always trying to find a way to make me laugh.. though at times I think it just happens accidentally. As much as I play fight with you, I hope you know its cuz unnie cares.

-May, my new dongsaeng from Florida ^-^. Thanks for chatting with me and confiding in me as an unnie. You are by far one of the most headstrong people I've met and I admire that about you. I am impressed that you have stuck out with things you felt are worth fighting for unlike this unnie. My your heart stay strong always.

-Anna, though we have met as I left the forum. It has been a pleasure to get to know you and talk to you. ^-^ I hope that we will continue to grow as friends.

- Mai thanks for confiding me in things as well as listening to my ramblings too. ^-^ I hope that your life will get better as time goes by. My hopes and best wishes are with you always.

-My little owlie Esther. Thanks for listening to this unnie's rants and I promise that one of these days I will finish the fic for you!! I am so thankful to have a friend like you

-Marrii dongsaneg ^-^ thanks for talking to me and helping me out when I needed it. Sorry I am not that good of an unnie but thank you for being a good friend for me.

Once again my apologies for not being able to mention with you, but my thoughts and heart are with you always.

<3 Rei
Thanks To - Dong Bang Shin Gi

｡Vers 2｡

2008-11-25T01:30:00.000-08:00

Well as you can see ^-^ time for the holidays so .. new colors and a new header to welcome in the season and this time the header features the adorkable SoulMates Jae Joong & Yoochun from their latest Lotte Promotion photos.

Also embedded is one of my favorite holiday songs "All I Want for Christmas is You" originally performed by Mariah Carey but I personally like Olivia Olsen's version which was used for the move Love Actually more. [[Yes xiu I said I don't like embedding music players on autoplay but pfft XD ]]

So I hope you enjoy the change of scenery here ^-^.

Happy Holidays to everyone and to those you care. May this season bring you and yours happiness, joy, love, family, friendship and of course lots of food, fun and presents!!!

｡Cooking? Cooking!｡

2008-11-22T21:19:00.000-08:00

So today my baby brother and adopted brother wanted to officially start: Cooking?Cooking!
as so cleverly dubbed by them XD in honor of one of Po's favorite Suju Happy songs by the same title.

The purpose of Cooking?Cooking! is to teach Po [my adopted brother] and Dane [my baby brother also known by me as My Minnie] how to cook different dishes, because I firmly believe that both men and women should be able to cook and so do my brothers. Each week, Po and Dane select one to two dishes that I would instruct them in making but actually not do any of the cooking so in a sense I have become Mama in Cooking Mama -->
Both my brothers seem to enjoy this and here is what happened with lesson 1

Lesson 1: Crab Rangoon & Honey [minus the Walnut] Shrimp

The first task I sent them on was to actually buy the ingredients for both dishes. Sadly it took them 2 days to gather them all [XD they get easily distracted]. After they returned with the ingredients necessary to make crab rangoon and spent waaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy much more than I thought they would have so I went with them to purchase the ingredients for Honey Shrimp. They wondered why I was price comparing and product comparing.. ie.. brand name versus generic, frozen to fresh. I began to explain the reasoning for this which most of you already know which would be is the brand name worth the cost of the product and what items don't matter when it comes to brands etc, as well as the convenience of things.

When we got home I immediately instructed them to organize all that we had purchased/will be using as well as to clean up the area and their hands before we started. From then on we started the Rangoon and Honey Shrimp. Tonight's lessons went well but lets have the pictures speak for themselves> ^-^v

**click on thumbnail to see fullsize**

** The students Po & Dane **

** Mixing the filling for the Crab Rangoon & forming them **

** Frying the battered shrimp [ shrimp in an eggwhite+cornstarch+ seasoning mixture] XD they didn't burn any woohoo **

** Frying the Crab Rangoon [ they tested out different folds and forms]**

** Mixing the sauce [mayo, condensed milk, honey, lime juice] with the fried shrimp and garnishing as well as adding flavor with chopped green onion**

** Complete Lesson 1**

** "We've passed lesson 1!"**

** "Time to eat!!!" **

Big Sis' Scoring: Though not very clean in presentation the taste was good and most importantly they enjoyed themselves ... so PASSED!

Next week's lesson: Masuman Curry

｡Color Part2｡

2008-11-15T21:23:00.000-08:00

part 2 of the coloring of miroticness vers. c
all that is left is junsu

** click on thumbnails to view full size **

｡Color｡

2008-11-13T22:19:00.001-08:00

Hahaha a new music video, a new version released = b&w pics for me to color woohoo
ill prolly add more later ja ^-^

*** click on the picture to see full size ***

picture credits: soompi.com
colorization credits: rei@koori-ni-kokoro.blogspot.com

｡Wrong Number｡

2008-11-12T07:50:00.000-08:00

The Lyrics:

You call me at least twelve times a day to check,
If by chance, I'm on the line with somebody, you leave a suspicious message

Who would I be talking with at this time?
It gets so hard for me, when you make up a girl who doesn't even exist, yeah

You trap me in the words of love, the annoying scoldings pile up, turning into attachement,
I want to forget you; I'll make sure you don't appear on my phone again, I said

You got the wrong number
You got the wrong number
I'm sorry. You got the wrong number
So don't call me no more

As if you're my mother, you know my whole day,
You're always worried about who I am with, as if it's for me

You try to make an excuse by saying you were curious,
But the extreme restrictions just make love more painful,
What would be the good of hanging onto a hung up call?
The words I hear are clear, what to say

You got the wrong number
You got the wrong number
I'm sorry. You got the wrong number
So don't call me no more

You got the wrong number
You got the wrong number
I'm sorry. You got the wrong number
So don't call me no more

I'll erase it all; I'll change it all; the password which reminds me of the times of you and me,
I'll erase your ringtone which rang everything my name appeared on your phone, reset, reset

Wow, I think I'll go crazy, I'll appreciete it if you shut up,
I'm like a stupid fish in your net, can't it be enough like this? Cash
Your words of love scrape my skin, it becomes dim,
My head starts to hurt again, I'm starting to hear auditory hallucinations,
As if you're interested, as if it's for me; i'm just your item,
You don't have to be nervous by the word No, just let me go, say,
Help me so I can escape, say, we're already too far to start again

You got the wrong number
You got the wrong number
I'm sorry. You got the wrong number
So don't call me no more

I want to escape from you now, don't call me again,
Don't hold onto a person that has left, just let me go, just let me go
Credits: qinaaax3 @ soompi

The Premise:

Girl obsessing over the guys to the point of smothering them and O.o implementing stalker/pervert tactics as in putting surveillance equipment in their homes and spying on them.

My Interpretation:

<--- XD thats it

｡Karma｡

2008-11-11T08:43:00.000-08:00

Most people don't believe in Karma... but I do.

And today, I just re-affirmed that karma does exist and that whatever you have done to someone.. it does come back to you tenfold.

My family in a polite way of saying is by far the most dis-functional family ever.

Two brothers who fear their wives and disowned their own family for their wives.

A father who after 40+ years of marriage commits infidelity and abandons his family leaving the country and his family to fend for themselves, taking away all assets. Ruined his family's credibility in the town. Stolen money from the temple to finance his love affair. Wished death upon the remaining children he has claiming that they were never his in the first place.

A sister in law so power and money hungry and status driven that she has completely decimated her husband's assets and destroyed an future for her children. Not only that but has made her a family targets for those she owes. Worst of all while doing all of this is committing infidelity [that is known by everyone except for my brother who I believe is in denial].

Of all of these... karma has hit one and made it clear that no one is without fault and must accept the consequences.

This morning I was informed that my eldest brother's family currently living in Japan is in dire straights, as my "perfect" sister-in-law has drained all of their money from all their accounts to finance her hair brained get rich quick scheme in a third world country.. and oh yea.. take care of her lover. This is to the point where my eldest brother has had to turn off and take away anything that would be considered an excess not needed to live, ie: internet, cable, promises of trips for holidays, personal tutors, cell phones. WTF.. Mind you my eldest brother is currently working as a government contract in Japan which the US government paying for a basic standard of living for him and his family [wife + 2 children] as well as he isn't being taxed on anything so.. HOW IN THE HELL ARE YOU GOING TO BE BROKE HUH?!?!?

My eldest brother to keep up with the lavish life style of his wife has even done a pay advance from his work for the next 3 years.. which she has blown in a matter of 3 weeks.. so he's pretty much working off a debt instead of making a profit for the next 3 years.

My nephew and niece have gotten their phones and internet taken away. No more private tutors, music lessons, or membership to Bigeast. If they were not being put through academy by the government, I don't know what would happen to them.

It was always a dream of my eldest brother to get away from the United States and see the world and completely distance himself from my family who he calls the shadow in his perfect life. Look at him now, living in the most up to date and exciting places in the world .. but living constrained unable to enjoy all the wonderous things Japan has to offer and unable to come back due to a contract...

What will he do.. what will she do... has karma run it's course?

For the sake of my niece and nephew I hope so...

｡Memory｡

2008-11-10T19:34:00.000-08:00

After a lot of thought and a lot of frustrations, I've pretty much come to a conclusion that it is time for me to let go of things that had me pretend to be someone that wasn't me. For those who know me you probably know what I mean, and for those who don't.. well since I've decided to leave it in the past there isn't much worth in explaining it. Like I've always said, I will keep the promises I have made in the past, but no longer do I want to hear about the drama involved in things I have left behind.

So pretty much if you want to know about my existence or see what I've been up to .. pretty much you will either have to find it here or through the links here or soompi. My reach out into cyberspace via forums and such will be limited to these because well soompi is so vague that my existence there is not noticed by many. Here because I am free to say, post do watever I please as long, without having to walk on eggshells.

Now it is time for me to be myself and live life with no regrets.

I should probably introduce myself once again.

Rei is the name I go by online and yes it is one of my actual names.
Age: 23
Nicknames or names you can call me by: Rei, Chaos
**for those who know me well, you know what you can call me by
Location: California
Personality: This is pretty much up to you to decide. Whatever you think I am, chances are it's only a small part of me.
Music preference: I like everything or at least give everything a try though I will clearly state that I have a complete dislike of American Rap

I have many acquaintances but when it comes to those I call friends, it is few and when it comes to those I would trust my life with , the list gets smaller.

There is one person I had the honor to meet 2 years ago that has become on of those, I can trust my life to. My best friend, my sister, my partner in chaos. She is the only person I have met through forums and online that has not judged me for being me and has accepted me as me. She's given me the hope and faith that I am not the only one that feels what I feel and that there is still true friendship in this world.

If you want to talk to me via email just leave a comment. I am a welcoming person, but after many years of betrayals and broken promises.. I hesitate. So if I don't reply to you promptly, it's not that I hate you or such.. I'm just contemplating why.